I have learned lately that the following is true:
- I never sleep anymore.
- Not sleeping leaves far too much time to think.
- Given time to think, my mind races either about the future or certain parts of the past.
- Thinking about the future leads to stress, which ultimately keeps me even more awake.
- Dwelling on the past leads to regret, which keeps me up replaying scenarios in my head thousands of times over even though I know nothing can be changed.
- Knowing nothing can be changed bums me out, which makes me want to sleep even though, as pointed out earlier, I never actually sleep anymore.
Sometimes I want to just quit my job, rent a place secluded somewhere in the countryside, and just sleep for a month straight.
This thought has been sponsored by Insomnia and the number 1:16. Go to bed.
Adam
